Fud Nud

Hello Blog, I know last times post was a big downer and I was mad and confused and I still am. What I didn't say was that basically all my friends were leaving me. I was losing all my friends and that sucked. I am going to admit something to you right now. I lie to people about my life so they don't see how sad and depressed I am. When I'm texting people, I'll make something up just for attention I am an attention hog! And I didn't realize it until about last month. I seek the approval of everybody and so I change who I am to get that approval. But, no more. This year I'm not going to be that attention seeking drama queen. I'm going into high school and like I said before I need to grow up! When I talked to guys it was always flirting and let's see what I can get him to say to me, but I'm tired of that. I'm not scared anymore. Two months later and I feel like a have my friends back. I can talk to them normally just be myself and talk to them not always trying to say the funniest things or the flirtiest(?) things. I'm done with that I am my own person now that isn't going to rely on some dwindled down invisible personify that isn't there. I do mean for this to be a happy post though because I'm finally accepting it. I'm a pushover and I was an attention seeker, but what matters now is that I'm done with all that. And I hope to become a better person through this. My progression will probably be slow since this is how I've lived my whole life but I don't want it anymore. It's Sunday today and it's snowing and with that snow comes a pure conscience, a fresh start.